Quizilla!
ever tried taking all these funny internet quizzes? the ones that say " what is your personality?" and always ask for your fave colour and such? the ones where you think the quiz is only accurate when they say things like "you are a fun-loving warm popular personality..." and the ones that are bullshit and you never care to remember are the ones that say "you are a boring, dependable person *blah blah*"... oops i can't rem the rest....
angelscrying ponders at 11:36 PM
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angelscrying ponders at 11:36 PM
"Travel makes sense only if you come back with an answer in your baggage"
-Leopold
"A Fortune Teller Told Me: Earthbound Travels in the Far East"
I had always wanted to travel. I had never really thought about the reason of why I wanted to, but when I read this, it did strike a chord in me. Perhaps, for me to travel, is the search for answers. The world is so big, and me so small. So many things happen out there, people living different worlds , most that we cannot even imagine; and if I may be able to just touch and feel the edge of their world, maybe then I may be able to bring something from that world back to mine, and it would change mine forever.
angelscrying ponders at 10:57 AM
Wednesday, April 27
Tuesday, April 26
watching.behind this glass window.
in life, as time goes by, we come to a point where we have to make decisions. when we make a decision we take one small step on the road we have chosen to take.
so the older we get, the more decisions we have made, the more steps we have already taken. and even though there was once when we were standing at the same place, both young, impressionable and fresh, now we might be in a place far away from each other.
and now, as i watch you walk down that path, your world becomes more distant... your state of mind, i cannot emphatize and i cannot understand you still choose to walk down that road. that road where it has trapped you into this never-ending spiral of pain and anger. a road where i cannot stop you from walking down. and where the road ends, i'm sure you know it but you won't admit it, is a place where i can only watch and cry for you.
angelscrying ponders at 12:33 PM
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so the older we get, the more decisions we have made, the more steps we have already taken. and even though there was once when we were standing at the same place, both young, impressionable and fresh, now we might be in a place far away from each other.
and now, as i watch you walk down that path, your world becomes more distant... your state of mind, i cannot emphatize and i cannot understand you still choose to walk down that road. that road where it has trapped you into this never-ending spiral of pain and anger. a road where i cannot stop you from walking down. and where the road ends, i'm sure you know it but you won't admit it, is a place where i can only watch and cry for you.
angelscrying ponders at 12:33 PM
Monday, April 25
to my dear visitor, john
his comment read, This reads to me similar to :-"I used to complain that I had no shoe's untill I met a man who had no feet." to fri's post.
i would like to say, well no, it isn't about feeling sorry for myself till i see the greater misfortunes of others. it is about how in this increasingly connected world, we become more disconnected with the people that live with us in the same society. How many of those who are "connected" can claim to even know their neighbours?
and i dun believe that we should sympathize with those who are "less fortunate". not that i'm being cruel here, but when you come to understand their worlds, you will come to realise that though they understand greater pain than most of us, they also understand greater joy than most of us too.
no, they don't need our pity or us to feel sorry for them.
angelscrying ponders at 7:03 PM
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i would like to say, well no, it isn't about feeling sorry for myself till i see the greater misfortunes of others. it is about how in this increasingly connected world, we become more disconnected with the people that live with us in the same society. How many of those who are "connected" can claim to even know their neighbours?
and i dun believe that we should sympathize with those who are "less fortunate". not that i'm being cruel here, but when you come to understand their worlds, you will come to realise that though they understand greater pain than most of us, they also understand greater joy than most of us too.
no, they don't need our pity or us to feel sorry for them.
angelscrying ponders at 7:03 PM
it's a brand new dawn
the nearer you are to God, the further you fall.
I guess what has happened is the surest sign that my walk with God has been in a state of spiritual mess. Because i have been too busy, i neglected to sit down and seek God with all my heart... and because i had drift too far from God i had become vulnerable. For the devil prowls around like a lion looking for people to devour.
But i cling onto the hope that God forgives when truly repentant (Jesus has died on the cross for this very purpose) and that if i seek Him with all my heart, He will turn his face back towards me again.
Amazing grace,
how sweet the sound,
that saves a wretch like me.
yes, i am wretched.
angelscrying ponders at 1:16 PM
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I guess what has happened is the surest sign that my walk with God has been in a state of spiritual mess. Because i have been too busy, i neglected to sit down and seek God with all my heart... and because i had drift too far from God i had become vulnerable. For the devil prowls around like a lion looking for people to devour.
But i cling onto the hope that God forgives when truly repentant (Jesus has died on the cross for this very purpose) and that if i seek Him with all my heart, He will turn his face back towards me again.
Amazing grace,
how sweet the sound,
that saves a wretch like me.
yes, i am wretched.
angelscrying ponders at 1:16 PM
Sunday, April 24
my 12 year old brother and his flame
it's kinda cute really.. my little kiddy brother has finally grown up. Me n my younger sister has been going on forever about how girls will fall over their feet just because he is in basketball and because he's tall... and er.... the funny thing is according to his flame, it is true. there are many girls falling all over their feet for him. which is kinda funny when you think about what a slob and a brat he is at home. Prince charming? *snort*
oh btw, did i mention i got to speak to my brother's first ever crush? yap i did.... i hav been wondering whether she liked him for a while now but i juz found out today tht it's mutual. talking about a unexpected shock. i thought he would only realise that girls r girls after 13. oh well. guess it has to happen sooner or later anyway.
angelscrying ponders at 12:39 AM
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oh btw, did i mention i got to speak to my brother's first ever crush? yap i did.... i hav been wondering whether she liked him for a while now but i juz found out today tht it's mutual. talking about a unexpected shock. i thought he would only realise that girls r girls after 13. oh well. guess it has to happen sooner or later anyway.
angelscrying ponders at 12:39 AM
Friday, April 22
many realities and their reflections
it struck me today how most of us saw the world in a sanitized, 'glamorous' light. things that are embarrassing always seem to be hidden away or very distant frm us. you know, like that homeless bum you saw at the mall, a kid whom many may not consider normal and his parents who are with him laughing as he fools around, or maybe the families that are struggling with financial issues and having a family night out at the mall.... all these people are living and walking alongside with us but yet it is easy to forget that they are as much part of this world as we are.
suddenly the world comes into focus.
angelscrying ponders at 10:11 PM
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suddenly the world comes into focus.
angelscrying ponders at 10:11 PM
it's a fresh new morning...
i got sick of looking at my blog so i juz deleted all of it.... yes ALL of it... when i hit the 'delete' button, i did feel this slight twinge of panic *what the hell did i just do?!* just shows how scary i am when i'm in a impulsive mood. i reassured myself by reminding myself that i hardly wrote anyway.... it wasn't like i was burning my journal so i felt a whole better after that...
i took a long time to get this template up.. like it? actually i won't be surprised if noone discovers considering how long since i've updated anything. oh well... for my eyes only then i guess *shrugs* even though i dun really love this skin it does somehow am kinda close to what i'm feeling now... i guess sooner or later i'll grow to love it haha...
never thought i'll be so content with spending so much time and effort on virtual space. but it does kinda feel like i just decorated my room.hmz.
angelscrying ponders at 12:44 AM
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i took a long time to get this template up.. like it? actually i won't be surprised if noone discovers considering how long since i've updated anything. oh well... for my eyes only then i guess *shrugs* even though i dun really love this skin it does somehow am kinda close to what i'm feeling now... i guess sooner or later i'll grow to love it haha...
never thought i'll be so content with spending so much time and effort on virtual space. but it does kinda feel like i just decorated my room.hmz.
angelscrying ponders at 12:44 AM